It's Never Too Late To Change Your Perception

That’s all I can really say.. I can’t explain how I really feel, I can’t connect the dots on how we used to be to where we are now, you we’re so sweet to me, now you probably don’t even care, It broke my heart when it all fell apart.. And it’s been a while, and I still shed tears and cry.. I can’t seem to forget about you, everyday you still cross my mind and I know I don’t want to, I live each day wishing to be back with you, but I can see you already like someone new, I hope she gives all the love I could’ve given you.. I can’t help but wonder if you and I stayed together, could things now have been better? Are we to be one forever? As far as I know there’s no US right now, maybe in future we’ll be with each other again.. But if we don’t I’ll be fine, I think I’ll be much better if you were mine, I can’t honestly sit here and say I don’t care, cause I know each day I wake up and try convice myself that I don’t, deep down I know I care.. It pains me to know my first love wasn’t here to stay.. I hate the feeling of being without you, I feel lost when I’m alone cause all I think about is you.. I reminisce on our first kiss, first date, and all the other things I can never forget cause you’re in it, The pain then strikes and tears then fall, and I sit here and think that you probably never cared at all, the feeling to stop myself from texting you, even though deep down I want to, a part of me dies each day I live without you, I never stop thinking what if things would’ve been different, but maybe I should just leave it alone, let time take it’s course, hopefully one day you’ll realize I am the one for you, I just hope you realize it sooner than later.. Cause I can’t hold on and be a mess forever..

I wish I could fast forward time so that I could through with these feelings for you.. Or rewind and play them back in slow-mo and remember how these feelings used to make me happy when you were still in the picture..

Sometimes life makes you feel like you’re walking blind

Always up and searching for things you can never seem to find

You keep walking and looking but you don’t know where you’re headed

Then when you feel you’re getting closer you’re already on your death bed.

So here’s to us that are trying to find our way

We gotta keep moving forward to wake up to another day

Just try to live it up every possible way you can

And be Thankful for the glimpse of life given to you by The Man.

I don’t know how it ended up this way, i was so sure that we were gonna last. At least “I” wanted to, /: but you ran away.. You left me hanging.. I still think to myself that “What if you stuck around?”.. I would be the happiest girl in the world, that’s what you would have made of me, but life takes turns for a reason, obviously that road wasn’t pointing where I needed to go, it hurts, it really hurts me a lot. I had never cared about anyone as much as I cared about you, you were important to me, you still are and it sucks that I can’t show it now. You got your own thing going on, you’re living life. Now, I’m gonna start mine.. once I complelety get over you, but before I bid good bye, I just wanna say that, I was only one step away to being in-love with you, and that’s why it’s so hard to let go. But sadly, I think it’s best to say good-bye though not forever, just for now, we can be together again someday, as friends, If it is destiny, it’ll find it’s way. Farewell

Please make it go away….

So today I was woken up by a news that changed everything I feel about anything, a dear friend of mine got into a car accident, Monday night, July 19, 2010. He’s unconscious and in critical condition with a broken neck, collapsed lung, and a bruised brain. Upon hearing the news I spend the whole day praying for his health, and prayed for a friend of his who passed away, who was in the passenger seat, Jason Mraz, 19. [RIP], as of right now they do not know the cause why Mario, 17 lost control of his car and head-on collided another car with two other teenagers both 17 years old. As sad and depressing it is to talk about a close friend who suffers from such an accident, I want a message to be passed on which is the only reason I am writing this. Our generation is becoming more irresponsible as the years go by, we’ve gotten really fucked up, and it just never hits us till it happens to us, or someone dear to us, but do we really want such an experience to get the point? I bet there was so much other things we could’ve done to prevent this tradgedy. As to all the young people out there, it only takes one simple mistake to cost you your life, or someone else’s. Please be smart. Take responsibilty, think of the consequences you may face in the future. Take care of yourselves, stay safe and God Bless.

And as to our friend Mario Molina, hang in there buddy, we are all praying for you, you need to come back, be strong, we need you to make more memories with us, and to our senior year. We love you.